Well, a bland night indeed.... got off work, went to get a bucks worth of gas... then met up with lawrence at 165... he got out of school at that time.... waited for bill... bill got there... went to wendys... sat there... bill went home... drove out to see the stars... loved it.... went to somewhat breakfast with 88... um yay go them....

Better than expected....

Well, work was a lot better today... jb was there, steve was there, and well, they were kickin back pretty well i think.... well i was on drive orders so, i didn't really get any crap from them... i kept my corner goin so they were happy... i was quite surprised today.. i didn't do no potatoes!! or mats!! i was doin fries and workin board... and it was slow enough to kick back and talk.. and well busy enough that we woulnd't get in trouble for not doing anything.... it was great fun today... some more pranks.... ashley and was puttin ketchup on the handle of the spatula for the cooks.. it was funny... the thing is... jb and april started it.. then it just grew.. on and on and on... it was great, me n ashley workin together, and jb and steve workin together to pull off pranks and jazz.... definately one of those kick back woot woot 6 hours went by like a choo choo type days..... ¤[Thought]¤ I hope tomorrow will be like that... but thurs and fri will suck..... larry's shift... well, larry and nick's shift... it'll be high strung and uptight....

What kind of Cat are you?

If I were a cat, I would be a… Puma! The Puma (Felis concolor) is an unmarked, tawny cat which possesses, along with great elegance and agility, many commonly used names. The most widespread of its labels are Cougar, Panther, Mountain Lion, and Catamount. They live over a broad range in all of the Americas. Being the Puma (or whatever you want to call it!), you are a very strong individual and have a great capability of succeeding at whatever you wish to accomplish. You are cunning when in sticky situations and adept at puzzles and riddles. - TAZL.com - Take the Quiz -

Forever? Try like 2 minutes...

So i didn't have to really wait afterall... i was playing diablo and was pretty into it... i've heard noises at my window similar to tapping but when i'd look over, nothing would be there.... and i did it quite often, i kinda always expected phil to be there at my window for something.... well after i got myself into diablo... which was like 2 mins into the game, i hear this tapping... but i was like, whatever, its nothing... prolly just whatever it was before.. but well, i heard it again and there was a figure that didn't look like phil at all, so i kinda freaked and jumped... and lo and behold... it was karalee!!! It was definately fun.... for me at least... i miss hangin around her... but i'm satisfied for a while i guess... our schedules are different, so whats there to do.... well i'm butt tired... i bet karalee is tired... i know phil is tired... i'm not sure about maria..... wow, things were discussed, and wow... viewing things at a different perspective is a whole new world.... especially when you know crap, and what not.. whoa... weird... i smell like karalee... or her car... somethin like that, but i don't smell like me.... crazy I like caramel shakes from jack in the box.. ¤[Thought]¤ What if people were able to make whatever food item they want appear.... well i'd think that they'd all eat it and get fat... but then you have those balemic people who'd probably dream of everything they wanted... eat it, then throw it all up so they can do it again.... and again..... so the'd be skinny..... yea, i'd like to be skinny, but i'm not sure about all the throwing up and the hey hey...whatnot junk... thats a little whacked out for my taste....

And another one bites the dust (ah)

Hi.. i'm mikey... leave me alone... theres not too much to do... well i went out got some batteries, then straight back home... i'm kinda waiting for karalee's phone call... but i should know better... currently, i'm killin some black widow spiders... and eating crunch berries... i'll prolly switch to cini. life or cini. toast crunch later.... I don't really feel all that great right now.... i'm not tired, or sleepy, or sick, but i still just feel kinda blah... i think i'm gonna play some diablo.... yea, that'll keep me occupied as i wait... forever....

Another new day

Ahh yes... i just got back from talkin with the squires... they're so awesome, i love them... it was nice being able to chat with them both and see whats up and how things are goin... i gotta visit them more often... Haha, brittany was up and everything, i guess i woke her up.. but o well, she's funny... she made one of the rats jump... and well elyssa was there, but she was kinda out of it, lyin around being "sick".... Lori gives good advice... and Brad is just funny in the oddest ways.. kinda like brandon but different Well i got to talk over some issues and stuff with them... well not issues, but things that we could talk about... they're lettin me have the honda, which i'm grateful for, so that i can get my booty to work and church and whereever... i don't think that i'll be going too far... i need to save gas money and what not... but every now and then i'll prolly drive everywhere to run errands and say hi... yay, now i can hang out with people too :)... well i have about 20 mins b4 church starts... so i gotta run! ¤[Thought]¤ I don't have to die, somebody already did for me.....

Thanks to the Love i have for life

Wouldn't life just be easier if you just died or you killed yourself.... that's been crossing my mind lately... i just don't want to deal with anything anymore... i don't want to hear anything anymore... i don't want to talk anymore... i don't want to see anymore... everything i hear, say and see hurts... but whatever, i guess i'm lucky i love living... So work was just long and tiring.... only had 1 hour of sleep and had a store meeting... i prolly shouldn't have gone to breakfast last night, i chose to.... dang, well i got my 8 somethin hours... So i missed out on everythin that went on today... the drinkin, the hangin out, the fun, the not drinkin and havin fun while hangin out, the drama, the not dealing with drunk people and babysitting.... sad? kinda but not really... oh well, at least i'm getting hours... i really do sit and think about killing myself... then i think about how smart i am about thinking about it.... then i think about how smart i am to think about thinkin to kill myself... and eventually i decide that i need therapy or something for thinking about it... but then i just usually need a good hangin out.... and well i get it most of the time... the other times, i just say, i'd be dumb to do it... Well, tomorrow i have church... funny that i have it right after i think about doing something thats well against what i believe in and what my beliefs are... i'm actually going to go to church... well gotta take care of some stuff before it, but i'll be at church... I didn't talk to anyone to day really... just people at work and work talk... a lot of it involved karalee... her name came up a lot, and i wasn't surprised... but i didn't really listen too much to really know what was said... and even if i did know... it wouldn't really matter, i dont know half of whatever was/is going on if anything.... i talked to scott a little, and talked a little to the squires mom.. i talked to lawrence cuz he picked me up from work... yea whatever tho.... oh yea, talked to brittany about stuff, jeremy mostly... some other guy, what went on today.... stuff like that.... 4:45 to 12:00 kinda ruins the night life.... and well, no one called me either, so that made me feel good... real good.... i think its funny that i can sit here and really think about what i was thinking about 2 mins ago and laugh about it.. or say, hey, what a loser, or who cares... lots of it is just really stupid and unreasonable... things are exaggerated and jurrassically blown out of a norm perspective... what i just said might even be blown up.... whatever... screw this i'm tired ¤[Thought]¤ Is there anybody out there.... can anybody see, or are they deaf and dumb like me....

Brain Ded and hung over...

Freakin retards... stupid people... retarded stupid freaking people... What is good about freakin beer? and why the heck can't people be responsible with it? i mean holy crap.. the more i hear the more stupid i think people are... i mean geez, take a look... russell got sent home from the store meeting cuz he was freakin hung over... brittany wasn't too happy cuz she had to be the mom for last night and couldn't have any fun cuz she was too busy watchin over retarded russell... gawd, and then you got dumbace phil with a ford who smokes cigs regularly and is gettin himself some... and then you got carla who freakin downs beers and what not like no other, who's always gettin f'd up/knocked up and plastered... and of course you got new hire maria who's a small little pint sized girl who downs beers like carla, and she's always freakin blazed up the wazoo... i swear they don't remember what they do, or say, and well they regret mostof the things they've done while being drunk after they become sober... and well, the next day, they do it again.... i heard carla talkin about phil.. the last time they got drunk together, which was a while ago said phil (freakin detailed crap i mentioned b4) , they knocked each other up and carla was drunk... well i guess phil made out with maria... the same girl who made out with ulises (or however you spell the name) and well i guess russell kissed carla, and carla showed her boobs to people she didnt know and was makin out with them and crap.... Geez, they complain about crap and then they get themselves jacked up again and into more crap.... what the heck... ugh... its just dumb... i don't got a problem with drinkin in moderation, but when it starts to affect the people around us and stuff... it gets really aggravating and stupid... Russell dang it, what the heck is wrong with you... ARGH... you knew we had a store meeting, you wanted to drive home from what i hear, and well i guess if brittany wasn't there you probably would.. and well if you did, with the luck that you have... you'd prolly trash that car also.... man, and now they're gonna do it again tonight with Krista's birthday, they're all gonna get flushed and hammered at sj's... and well, its just gonna be dumb and stupid if its big enough, it'll be broken up... man screw beer..... screw cigs.... screw drugs... what the heck man...... argh, then i got phil always tryin to get me to drink, and now that he's into smokein (which he says he smokes a half a cig a week... which is TOTAL bs..) he tries to get me to smoke also.... and he knows the almighty answer dang it.... if i could use F bomb to get it into his head, i would... but not really... there's not a situation where could use the F bomb and feel right about it..... but ARGH... DRINKIN LIKE MAD MEN AINT COOL.... dang it ¤[Thought]¤ And here we go again... with the drinky drinky and the kissy kissy and the knockin knockin knockin on heaven's door....

Phase shift in reality...

Wow, is all i can really say.... i'm really quite confused, but also not caring too much about it, tired for sure, kinda happy and well, over all shaken and stirred with some awkwardness... Things were pretty fun tonight... still different and its takin a little of gettin used to... went to the arcade with jeremy, then went to karaoke which was fun, kinda actually blah-ish... i wasn't really in too much of the mood to go, but i went anyway... i didn't really want to spend the money, but i felt kinda bad makin jeremy drive all over the place.... went to close at 88... that was... whatever, can't find a word for that... then went to breakfast where karalee got soaked by 3 cups of water and i got like some after splash.... jimmy and ashley went as well... they're funny... the weirdest, unexpected couples pair up... then you got the occasional, you two are totally alike couple... but whatever, uh... they all got some breakfast and stuff and we all talked... mostly baggin on the waiters and the lack of forks and tips... and other misc odd things.... the wood decoration lookin things, the amount of money the food cost, how small the 'giant' pancakes were... i was spacing out a lot, i guess julian was a total jerk, and well that other guy, i think ted er some other name like that was kinda challenged... i might be wrong, but whatever, i invested my 2 braincells toward them... We were done with breakfast and stuff and went outside to talk in the parking lot... i mean 'leave'.... and jeremy and karalee and i were just talkin i guess... i was more of listening and thinkin.. takin notes and stuff i guess... seein how much i'm really out of it and if i can get back into it... i can't really do it though... somethings wrong, i'm really self conscious about things i do now, also about things i say... i think everything is a mistake or is going to be a mistake or something... Weird enough... thoughts were coming to my head in jeremy's car that startled me a little bit... it started out with, heck, i dont even know, somethin about 88 then me transfering to 88 and the rumors heard about it, then reasons why i would transfer, reasons why jeremy would quit, reasons why it's hard to do both, either transfer or quit.... then talkin about managers and stuff also relating to reasons why we'd transfer or quit, then all the friends we have at work and how much we'd really keep in touch... After school ended, all my pretty close friends left, either to college or another state for college or just to live.... i guess all the friends i have now are from work... and with that... i realize how much i don't really know them and how much i'm even involved in their life.... even with karalee now, i dont know how big of a part of her life i really am.... although i'd like to think that i'm at least somewhere between everyone else and somebody, but thats probably too much now... and well, the answers will all come sometime, and well, i know its gonna hurt... jeremy and i were talkin and stuff, and its really kinda wierd, but jeremy and i have been hangin out a lot lately... gettin to know each other more and stuff... talkin about brittany and whats up with that jazz... i've never really expected him to kinda open up to me like that... it was a total surprise... and its still weird cuz he hangs out with karalee a lot now, and it seems that he thinks that i know whatever karalee knows.... and well, i don't really.... i don't really know jack.... i think that i do, and i like to make it seem like i do that is.. if i can, but nope... i dont... and heck, i know that karalee will read this, probably some other people as well and well, i dont got the balls to say anything... i just type it out so i can maybe get things straight later or get it out of my head (just so i can cram it back in later when i read this again).... heh "i dont like confrontation" and me 2.... so like, blah... i don't really think this is one but whatever..... ¤[Thought]¤ Thought(s) is more like it....My back is jacked up and it hurts..... and karalee is good at what she'll be doing I gotta be at the store meeting in about 3 hours.... well i guess chillin with karalee was worth it.... my butt is still wet.... and i gotta go pee.... and i spent too much money today... and my arms are getting tired, and i really need to take a shower (sorry to everyone that was around me, i prolly wasn't a good air freshener)... althouh i did take one b4 we went to the arcade.... i had sonic... it was tasty... karalee still plays with her hair.... i still am obnoxious.... i'm going to go pee.... i'm back... i washed my hands and the water was cold.... my hands are cold... my heart is getting cold.... or maybe i'm talking about my hands... well lets say both for less confusion of my tired brain... i'm tired... bed looks good... mykii going to bed.... Bie Bie

Dumb dumb bmub crap....

Haha, well work today was.... blah, wasn't as fun as lisa... but it was nicks shift, so i didn't really expect too much.... nothing too exciting happened tonight except i did have these 2 half drunk thirtyish ladies thru the drive.... after their order was done, i said TOOOKY TOOOKY to lawrence, and the girls heard me and reversed and said what'd you say? then they pulled up and said, what's goin on in there... then lawrence said CAW CAW... and i was like, HOnKyFoo, and stuff and these half drunk ladies were all sorts of crackin up and jazz.... it was dumb, yet funny After closing, L, Russell, Bob and I went to Dennys... we had some interesting conversations there... first about me taking a crap in the bathroom and hearing someone else talk about one of the crazy nerds out in the lobby doing something stupid... also relating them to in-n-out.... then that lead to something about nose hairs then long boogers then bloody noses... then someone a long time ago who flung their booger out the window and onto my windshield... then went to bob thinkin that we wouldn't be surprised if we get written up for some sexual harassment crap cuz of the stupid things bob and nick and russell say in the stand.... then russell getting porn from larry after moving larry, then bob talkin about porn, then me just using russell's line "f'n Mykii (but russell instead of course).. then talkin about ranch and how lawrence puts it on everything now, and russell and his ketchup, then bob eating my pancakes with syrup (suh-rup) not (seer-up) i think... now i'm confoosed... but thats it.... nothing else really worth mentioning today at work happened... nothing too spectacular.... a couple faces popped in, but thats it... an old v-ball teammate came thru.. that was very interesting... some other associates... some regulars... oh and russell broke the button on his pants... he had his finger out his zipper of his pants imitating a penis... and he walked around and made nick and bob and lawrence laugh while i actually worked (thats actually a first when closing =O) but then russell came up behind me... and i acted like i was gonna punch him in the balls and well, he broke his button.... sucka... yea thats it.... i fixed up lawrence's comp... uh, he was here not too long ago... today is my day off... well tomorrrow... today technically... and well, I HAVE DIABLO BACK!!! WOOT WOOT!! time to kick back and maybe hang out with some people!! and i got 32 hours this week.... not too bad, one day short of a really nice check (in my terms).... somethin like that, i'm not complainin too much... i'm happy with that... oh yea, almost died with lawrence driving again... several times in a matter of 8 minutes... trying to get from my house to work... freakin running stop signs, lights and what not.... the best was the light on eastern and serene... we were totally not gonna make it but he went anyway and screamed.... THIS IS FOR YOU LISA!!!!! while his tires squealed... larry was pissed off today, i'm supposed to sign a write up, but i didn't yet... so o well.. f' him... lawrence got a talk from nick... argh... whatever... "Motivate me.... i gotta get myself outta this place" for real... I'm out, its late... gotta get a little diablo in also... ¤[Thought]¤ All broken up.... confused and dazed.... knowing, but not caring.... caring, but not knowing...... missing, not seeing, contact? none... why....

Crashed Out and Gone

Wow, well its early in the mornin, 3:41-ish as of right now, and i'm feeling more crazy than ever!! not really kinda tired and settled but i wish i was dang crazy and crazy-go-nuts insane and junk... i already woke up russel with... let me see..... 67+ sms messages that i know of.... crazy eh?! Lawrence right now is crashed out on the floor.. we played some 2 player DDr on my comp. And i'm talkin to Karalee on Aim as well as phil... he keeps on talkin about his new computer... i kinda guided him as to what he wanted and what was good for his range... he's satisified i believe.... and there goes karalee... at exactly 3:47:08 AM..... aim is useful isn't it? too bad i didn't get to say bye- too busy typin on this jazz... haha, i guess i got a "regular" visitor... probably shouldn't have been so surprised... but karalee's always on... so like, Hi you! Life has been alright lately, dad's still whacked out of his mind, but whatever, i guess its bareable... rather have my relationship with my dad go down the hole than some other relationships..... well itd be better if my relationship with my dad was a little better... and i've been workin on that too... doesn't really help, but i might as well keep trying for that one opportunity that might arise.... Wow, i'm looking back at my archives... there was a lot of stuff going on... i can't believe that my car was sold in january... freakin now its like... what... September? Thats kinda making me depressed... its weird going through my own ups and downs... its really really weird that each time i read a different day, i remember more things about that day... seems like January and February are pretty much downtimes... and well it goes on from there... i really wonder what happened to me, what i felt, and how other people felt.. its funny, well not funny, but more interesting and mind boggleing... I stumbled over March 11th, 2003... in which i posted "You Are" and remembered that i saw that in Ashley's room soon thereafter... haha, then i came over one entry that just said... you know the world hates you when theres no stars out.... i remember karalee saying on the phone, so theres no stars out huh? wow... amazing... the things we go through... how our paths change... alright, enough of that... Haha, work was actually quite frustrating.. at least in my part, i was in drives and people were just..... dumb or new, never been there before... each drive took forever to explain... well this is _____ we put _____ on it... it comes with ______ can't you freakin read you dumb for dumb moron... anyway, it was kinda relieved with some tips i got later on that night, but there was this one point in the night were a ford focus from last night came through... they were filled with 3 girls pretty cute, but the backseat one was hot... it was just really surprising, cuz they were like, if we all flashed you could we get a free meal, i was like... what the hell? sorry, but i can't do that, plus its cold out... and they were like, what the heck? you mean, if we showed you our tits you wouldn't give us anything? i was like, uh, sorry i probably wouldn't even look... they were stunned, and i laughed and gave them their food... they drove off smiling and bouncing to Da Rule- Sandstorm.... What crazy girls..... OH yeA, I made 6 bucks in tips... i was stoked.. and it was from 2 different people, a buck from one and 5 from another... i told them i didn't want to take it... but well, i gave in to temptation and took it eventually, i felt kinda bad and i told them that too, but they gave it to me anyway... now i just feel bad... but not really, but kinda i am.. but now i'm over it and 6 bucks richer... go me! Aww.. where's ashley....... and karalee..... love them both and kimball he's doing well tho.. and todd... what a goof, gotta write him back and me where am i........ ¤[Thought]¤ Wow, the past year of my life was really spent with karalee and in-n-out.... and i missed out on some pretty good months for typing- November and December.... what would my life be like without her? or half the other people i'm with?... My "I WILL" list I will do it now I will make and keep my committments I will find the right people who will help me I will look for an answer in every problem I will never give up trying I will make it OK to be wrong and make mistakes I will create my own good luck I will not be afraid to lose before I win I will be who I am and become what I was meant to be I will accept all things that are possible -also in my Aim Profile

Ugh...blogger...

Dang it... freakin technical difficulties and crap... man look what they did to my beautiful page!!! ARGH!!! oh well, i can't change it.. why should i get mad over it... might as well accept it... thats it for now.. peace!

Strong Bad

Ahh, Strong bad and his story with the Stunt Double you gotta check this one... Definately one of my favorites!!

10 Secrets to Success 1. How you think is everything. Always be positive. Think success, not failure. Beware of a negative environment. 2. Decide on your true dreams and goals Write down your specific goals and develop a plan to reach them. 3. Take action Goals are nothing without action. Don't be afraid to get started now. Just do it. 4. Be persistent and work hard Success is a marathon, not a sprint. NEVER give up. 5. Learn to analyze details. Get all the facts, all the input. Learn from your mistakes 6. Focus your time and money Don't let other people or things distract you. 7. Don't be afraid to innovate and be different Following the herd is the sure way to mediocrity. 8. Deal and communicate with people effectively No person is an island. Learn to understand and motivate others. 9. Enjoy your success Understand how you got there / take the time to reward everyone including yourself 10. Be honest and dependable; take responsibility Otherwise, numbers 1-9 won't matter.

Work n Sleep

Well, i worked and now i'm back home... ready to crash... gawd, i'm way freakin spaced out, its not even funny... i don't know where my energy went... it like dissappeared in a matter of 10 minutes... i think it was when i sat down in the office with lawrence.... argh, i feel bad, i should've gone to breakfast with them like i said.... but i really don't... this is better for me i guess.. i need sleep.... so like... without further adieu.... ¤[Thought]¤ Your choices are a matter of your own self inflection, showing who you are and what you want to be... and thats it for right now... Nighty night world

Gawdayemeat

Ugh, well i HAD a dental appointment this mornin... well... a half an hour ago and well, i didn't go... my mom was supposed to pick me up and junk but didn't... and i even called her last night to remind her... then today she said that i never told her!! i was like... argh... hopeless.... yea well, anyway, i rescheduled for tomorrow... Well... life has hit... and hard.... just more and more stuff piled on the huge gelatinous mass thats in the corner... its manageable, but i'm not sure how long i can keep myself afloat... its been a little crazy, ya know.. with like work and home and crap... i'm still trying to get out of my house as much as i can... and haha, i also gotta clean the rest of it... Ugh, i shouldn't continue to put this crap off... its not look responsible and well.. good either.. anyway... i'm done for now... ¤[Quote]¤ Stacy's mom has got it goin on

You can't find me!!!

Haha.. right now i'm at the UNLV computer labs with lawrence phil and christina... we're just kickin it as he does some homework and what not.. i think its kinda funny... lawrence is sitting in front of me at one computer, christina to the right of me at another and phil in front and to the right of me... he's just kickin it tho.... haha Hahaha, christina and i are talking on aim right next to each other.. funny eh? she's all lookin all funny... she's typin to daisy... Looky i can see you and you're tyin to me... haha... you'll prolly read this and well... think something like... f'n mykii, what are you thinkin... what a nerd... haha crazy ness..... alright i think i'm done with this... at least for now..

Ahh... normalcy... Back at work once again... I was actually excited to go back for some odd reason... well not like really really hyper extensively immense excitement, but i was like... i'm ready to do things right. We [Jeremy, Christina, that one new chick with the Rockelle name er something, Phil and Jerod] watched a craptacular movie... Cold Creek Manor.... i didn't like it, i don't believe that the others liked it either... i don't really recommend it.. In all humility, being yourself is probably the best thing to do when you walk out of the Denny's bathroom with toilet paper in your nose and ears.... Ahh... thats really it guys and gals... ¤[Thought]¤ Ever wonder how different life would be omitting a certain period of time?

Head On Collision by New Found Glory I've been waiting for a good day I've been holding back long enough I've been hurting to tell you some things: It's not the falling of the temperature That's making all our bones run cold It's the breeze you make The presence felt when you're around me And it feels like im at an all-time low Slightly bruised and broken From our head on collision I've never seen this side of you Another tragic case of feeling Bruised and broken From our head on collision I've never seen this side of you Another tragic case And I'm still waiting for a good day I think I've held this long enough I think it's safe to tell you some things It's not just what you say to people And it's not the way you look at me It's the way you present yourself For all your worst critics to see And it feels like I'm at an all-time low Slightly bruised and broken From our head on collision I've never seen this side of you Another tragic case of feeling Bruised and broken From our head on collision I've never seen this side of you Another tragic case Then you were gone You were gone... All this time you just didn't know it yet You were gone... All this time you just didn't know it yet You were gone... And it feels like (feels like) I'm at an all-time low Slightly bruised and broken From our head on collision I've never seen this side of you Another tragic case of feeling Bruised and broken From our head on collision I've never seen this side of you Another tragic case Another tragic case of feeling Bruised and broken Another tragic case and I've been Still waiting for a good day Still waiting for a good day...

Heh, well hey! i'm back in tizown... i'm putting things together and i still have a lotta bumps to get out but i'm doing really well.... I'm taking care of mostly everything but i'm still missing something, its really important to me and i care so much about it... what it is? Karalee... I had a really fun night out, it was awesome and well, i never felt so much like myself... outrageously stupid, embarassing others with my presence and well, i can't go on describing me, someone should though.... just not me.. anyway, it was a dang fun blast and we're doing it next week dang it!! Wow... so amazing, so fun... I couldn't get though this [life] alone...

Ahh, yes... its working... WELL!!! awesome!! ah yes... last night- what a fast half blast from the past that didn't last too long... DA BEARS LOST DANG IT!!!!! anyway, i've been making fun of ian lately... UNLV BEAT WISCONSIN!!! how amazing is that?! its like... way amazing or something!! or its like... something amazing!! The day was spent flipping burgers from 10-12 at my brothers church picnic and playing around with the kiddies.. it was real fun, kids are a blast, but sometimes they're really annoying.. like when they follow you around, and its not like 1 follows you around, its like 5 and growing... but its fun anyway cuz then you just stop and they all run into you and just stare at you... haha gwhat a blast... the rest of the day was spent either sleeping on the L couch or watching the bears game/ watching gone in 60 seconds (since the bears kinda suck)... it was a usual night for me and well, it was good. Ahh... i talked to Ashley last night!! That was really cool, it was fun talkin to her... now i that was the longest time i ever talked to her (i think i say that every time i actually talk to her)... hah... anyway, she's doing well, she's lovin the kiddies and stuff out there... i guess INO blows out there too... her car is havin some crappy troubles and its gettin handled.. She says everything is nice out there, and she's gettin homesick everynow and then, but i guess that she'll be fine soon... this friday karalee is goin down there to go watch a show and bring ash's kitty down there... haha... way random, but ashley said that the asian guy in the Burger King commercial (the one where the little girl makes some kinda contraption and the guy appears and makes some funky face) looks like me!!! I was like, oh heck no... i made fun of that guy when i first saw him.. and that was like. 10 minutes ago!! oh well, all asians look a like i guess =). heh, by the time i was done talkin to her, it was i think 1:30... so thats like 10:30 there i guess... Well i tried going to sleep after i talked to ashley.. i tried to think that i was tired so i could actually go to sleep, but that didn't work out too well... so i called Lawrence knowing that he's always chillin at home doin school work n junk now a days and so i could catch up on things in vegas i guess... he's doing alright... not much for him to really do.. he just goes to work goes to school and bam, its just about over... he doesn't really get to hang out too much because of that, and well i guess when he does, its fun... he's been tellin me some update junk about ino as well... haha i guess we got a bunch of new hires there... erica went to arizona, gregs gone for school, people are all workin the night shift... both him and ashley told me that karalee's at 88 now... funny, i was really thinking of transfering there after i got back, but eh, we'll see what happens..... steve's getting married... i guess lawrence said that larry's was all pissed off after karalee left, heh... from what i'm told, he got like a 2 hour talk with blando outside er something..... hmm, i... wonder... eh, moving on... i guess things at ino are a little spastic... i guess i'll go back to 165 with some kinda crap headin my direction, or i'll be in dining room or somethin... oh well, bring it on, its not every day that you're gettin paid 9 bucks to clean tables... well maybe... i don't know... well i talked to him for a little longer just to see what was up with him, and i guess i got done with him around 2:35... i convinced myself that i was really sleepy... and well, i went to sleep for another like 10 minutes feelin like it was an hour... and well, i woke up, checked my phone, and Instant messenger alerted me that karalee signed on at like 1 somethin (i got AIM to alert me when people sign on... its kidna cool) and i was like hey, maybe she's awake... i looked at the clock 3 somethin and called karalee's house (12:00 right?)... emily answered and well knew it was me.. she said that karalee was sleepin, so i was like, no sweat... catcha later..... Well i finally got to sleep... its been hard going to sleep in the past couple weeks... and dang, i guess i was a day off.. i come back in like 2 days....wow, i thought it was going to be thursday, but... i guess not... oh well, impending doom is approaching... funny haha.. well at least i'm getting more scared about it now instead of tomorrow... yipe! Well its only 11 am... i guess i better do some laundry and clean up the house a bit... i'll catch me here again.... but the elevator is broken in this building.... so i'm GONNA HAVE TO JUMP!!! ¤[Quote]¤ what the hell is wrong with me i don't fit in with anybody how did this happen to me? wide awake im bored and i can't fall asleep and every night is the worst night ever

Ugh, well since the last one again got jacked up... (i'm thinkin of writing blogger... they be pissin me off the sheazy)... i'm going to sum up my thoughts... Moving... Indiana, Ohio, Vegas, Somewhere else in vegas, pros and cons there of.. What went on the past couple days Freakin Ian presented a presentation about mormonism to his church Miscellaneous thoughts regarding me going back to vegas and my perspective on such. How fun indiana was Girls and junk Talked to scott And thats just about it... in minor detail of course.. ¤[Partial Conversation]¤ "How can you not like The Beatles? They've got a song for everyone!" "Ha, so they're kinda like Walmart... Walmart has something for everyone." "You can't compare The Beatles to Walmart!!" "Haha... I Just DiD!!" -Caitlyn, Maddy (sp?), Me ¤[Thought]¤ I'm not ready to take on my life again... not forgetting work and where i'm gonna live... oh and the recently terminated health, life and dental insurance as well as car insurance... dandy... dandy dammit..... 9-11.......

Well, once again, i have to type everything over again, stupid piece of crap crap dog dung dung dookie.. i'm retarded Ahh.. where to start... again.... Yesterday was pretty cool, i woke up screaming to a friend ringing the doorbell.. we played some gamecube and xbox and then i got caught up in a game and he dissappeared upstairs in this loft... i think he was looking at a certain something.... not kosher man.... freakin whackness.... well he got some from himself i believe... the history of Internet Expoder was erased and all my passwords to blogger, xanga, yahoo, were all erased, so he cleared his tracks for the most part..... but i knew... anyway, after he took off, i just played a little more xbox and then made my way upstairs to the loft where i seached for music that i'd like... well i found some stuff but not that much.... that took me all the way to v-ball!! Vball was insane once again, i didn't play all that great, i was really sore and tired and am full of knots still... freakin theres one in my quad that kills like no other... i dunno if its even a knot... dang man, whenever i type knot, i want to put garlic in front of it... mmmm garlic knots..... anyway Andy was freakin on last night, like me, he relieves his stress by playing ball.. and wow he's got a lot of it... The Dark comes before the Dawn Andy is definatly one to know this.. especially right now, he just bought a house with a leak in it, he broke up with his 2 year girlfriend, his job is offering him a Demotion or he's gotta write a 6 month action plan and if anything fails in his action plan, he'll be held responisble and may be subjected to corrective action... and well, now he's waiting for otehr things to happen.. like getting into a car accident... oh wait, that already happened... yea, so pretty much he's lookin for other things that can be going bad in his life.... I kinda know the same deal, i'm not so much in the dark i'm just more of entering, waiting for more stupid things to happen, such as; a lost plane ticket, a broken nail, minidisc batter running out on the plane, my hair not looking right... stuff like that... funny haha.. yea, but i dont know what to do when i get back, i dont know what will happen and i dont know if what i plan to do is going to make me go nowhere, or somewhere that i don't want to be... both my bro and i dont really focus on the crappy things, its more of everything that reminds us of the things that we try to forget (or that we say that we forget, but somehow... SOMEHOW they just come back)... for instance.. andy wasn't supposed to go to this church meeting on sunday, but he had to fill in for someone. The meeting was only an hour on the weekend that his exgirlfriend was in town (she was in town for a wedding that her and andy were supposed to go to).. well she decided to stop by the church during the hour that my bro was there... yea, i bet that hurt.. but yea, me? i just don't let go of things, good and bad.. and everything reminds me of something else... like things are chained and webbed together.. mostly random things... like.. lets try one... haha, i just picked one fresh from the noggin... i just saw a razor scooter... at first i thought of Lindsay Beckstead going down the strip with her prom group.. then i thought of prom and why i'm a loser and don't got guts.. then i thought of ashley, and that led to kimball, and that lead to kimball and karalee's dispute, and then i thought of karalee, and then i thought of oh crap....... anyway that was a good one... i should make long banners like that or like make wallpaper for the legally deaf but still can read and hear things... I got that idea from the "Make long banners and wallpaper for the legally deaf but can still read and hear things" book by Leem Faghwichnolyfe. Its a pretty gooda booka... Oh i also talked to Mike O'Connell!! that was soo freakin cool.. he was my caukasian twin from 4th grade.. we were equal in like everything, speed, height, amount of games we both owned, bikes... i haven't actually talked to him for like 7 years... soo cool... i wonder where he got my phone number from... it was soo cooolio... anyway, that was that.. Ahh, today.... Today, well this part of today, was pretty stagnant.. freakin i typed this over and over again, of course changing things... and i listened to some music.. like.. Wakefield and The get up kids and like Rooney.. its gooda stuff.. I'm supposed to hang out with kimball today, well now its the afternoon, freakin i took like 3 hours typing the last 2 versions of this... and well, he was taking a long awaited nap.... well, i guess we're not gonna hang out today.... No matter how good she looks, some other guy is sick and tired of putting up with her crap.... i guess i can put that on kimball's pov after his deal... but most of us would disagree on kimball's pov, so its all funny.... No matter how good she looks, some other guy is sick and tired of putting up with her crap. Mostly True!! Um whatelse... well i guess nothing.... well thank you for tuning into Surreal Reality, remember this was brought to you by viewers like you. ¤[Thought]¤ I want to go to a resturant bathroom and put "No wonder you go home alone" on one of their mirrors.. :)

Things I'd like to do sometime 1. Go traveling with friends 2. Be scared for no apparent reason 3. Go innertubing down a hill on a rainy day 4. Play tag on a crowded street 5. Set up a treasure hunt deal 6. Go on a treasure hunt deal 7. Volunteer time and energy to a good cause 8. Make a difference in someone's life 9. Go camping someplace 10. Carve my name in a tree at a place i'll remember 11. Cram as many people as i can into a compact car of some sort 12. Drive and sing 80's music as loud as i (we) can with the windows down 13. Drive and attempt to sing Mexcian music as loud as i (we) can with el windows downo. 14. Take pictures of street names and arrange the words into a story. 15. Climb a tree and have a sandwich 16. Get buff 17. Finish the things to do when bored in Wal-mart 18. Go on a roadtrip with some friends 19. Have a perfect day 20. Be able to treat people to dinner at ______ 21. Finish this some other time ¤[Thought]¤ When you are arguing with an idiot, make sure the other person isn't doing the same thing. ... To be continued

Things to do when bored in Wal-mart or somethin.. 1. Get boxes of condoms and randomly put them in people's carts when they don't realize it. 2. Set all the alarm clocks to go off at ten minute intervals throughout the day. 3. Make a trail of orange juice on the floor, leading to the rest rooms. 4. Walk up to an employee and tell him in an official tone, "I think we've got a Code 3 in house wares," and see what happens. 5. Tune all the radios to a polka station; then turn them all off and turn the volumes to "10." 6. Challenge other customers to duels with tubes of gift wrap. 7. Put M&M's on lay-by. 8. Move "Caution: Wet Floor" signs to carpeted areas. 9. Set up a tent in the camping department; tell others you'll only invite them in if they bring pillows from Bed and Bath. 10. When someone asks if you need help, begin to cry and ask, "Why won't you people just leave me alone?" 11. Look right into the security camera, and use it as a mirror while you pick your nose. 12. Take up an entire aisle in Toys by setting up a full scale battlefield with G.I. Joes vs. the X-Men. 13. Ask other customers if they have any Grey Poupon. 14. While handling guns in the hunting department, suddenly ask the clerk if he knows where the anti-depressants are. 15. Switch the men's and women's signs on the doors of the rest rooms. 16. Dart around suspiciously while humming the theme from "Mission Impossible." 17. Set up a "Valet Parking" sign in front of the store. 18. In the auto department, practice your "Madonna" look with various funnels. 19. Hide in the clothing racks and when people browse through, say things like "pick me! pick me!!" 20. When an announcement comes over the loudspeaker, assume the fetal position and scream, "No, no! It's those voices again!" 21. If the store has a food court, buy a soft drink; explain that you don't get out much, and ask if they can put a little umbrella in it. 22. Go into the dressing room and yell real loud..."Hey, we're out of toilet paper in here!"

Laying sleepless in my bed... Thousands thoughts stream in my head... Asking questions... Taking trials... Making errors... Bringing smiles... Facing problems and denials... Stripping pitfalls... Saving files... Though I know my muse is near, yet no poem text I hear, and my paper is still clear as if the ink just disappears... Absence diminishes little passions and increases great ones, just as the wind blows out a candle and fans a fire. Haha, i never thought of the word Bowling, until one of my bro's friends mentioned it... i had so much fun with it for the first.... well... 40 times i went.. then i just kinda stopped going.... i went all the time in vegas... and well, i just dont feel like i gotta do it anymore. Its fun none the less, but its not one of my big passions i guess... Its so true though, you're away from somethin you love so much that it makes you love it more and you lose interest in the other crap in your life.. like stress... is stress a passion? i'll find out.... Ahh.. an example... I want my car back dang it... i haven't had one for long time that now i really want one.... and well my skateboard? eh, liked it, but i wouln't go back and strive for one.... heh.. yea, thats a good example... i'm the bomb. As stated on my other page, i don't really feel like discussin too much, so like.. yea, i'm gonna bum out and get somethin to drink... like a dr. pepper.... *drool* and maybe a side of some kind of drug... like a sleeping pill... ¤[Thought]¤ No Contact fishing isn't fun to watch...........or participate in.