.:Thought:. Chance (n.): a coin with two sides that one tosses into the air as many times as one wants. The odds remain the same. Life is boring with out taking chances, chances with luck, chances with girls.. ya know... , chances are there, you might as well try....... no matter how many you take, the odds will remain the same.

Wow, i'm cleaning my room right now!! Its amazing!!!!

Yea, so like... stuff has happened, yesterday mornin i got my car towed to the dealership... fun stuff actually. Then i went to work, i can't exactly say was the best thing ever to do but it was alright... it was kinda odd actually, i did some dumb stuff last time i worked handheld and got in trouble with Blando's wife... yea, well she told Larry and what not and i got the crap i deserved... odd enough, yesterday, he puts be back on handheld, and reluctantly i do it... I duno if i was doin well or not, but every now and then i'd get scolded, but o well i got over it.. then around the end of my shift, i got a complement from a customer... i duno, but i thought it was weird... i was kinda pissed off when i came inside and didnt feel like talkin to anyone, i didn't know and still don't really know why. Well, then as usual, Karalee came to comfort me. I said i was alright and i'd live. Truthfully, thats all that i felt, couldn't tell her much more behind whatever. Well, she kept on askin and i kept on sayin nothin's wrong.. I guess i was pretty rude, but then afterwards, she got all happy, she said that she had a tape from todd, i just swirled my finger like i'd normally do when she says stuff about todd... i.e he's cute... Well, she snapped, "What the hell is wrong with you" well that was the first time i've ever heard her say anythin like that to me, so i replied... what did you say? and of course she just said what is wrong with you.. i just walked out kinda stunned, but not really caring. Vanessa was really kind to me last night.. She let me borrow her car even though she has never seen me drive, or even drive with me. I took Useless out to do whatever he needed to do, but it quickly got under my skin... he made me drive up and down eastern around 9 times or so... around the 3rd time i kept repeating to myself... Vanessa was very friendly to me, so i in turn should be friendly to others.. but what in the world!!! he made me drive up and down eastern over and over again when all i really wanted to do was drive him home and drive myself home!! Then i picked up Lawerence, he helped me get out of the annoyed mood and we went to a sweeeeeet sushi buffet. Sure it cost a lot but it was really worth it!. Oh yea, he came with me down to 81 do so some junk. I knew he really didnt want to, but it was great that he came with me anyway. Then we messed with Vanessa through the window at 165, it was fun... Finally i went inside, i didn't really know what i was thinkin er anything but i decided to stay there even though people offered me rides and alternate ways of goin home. I still stayed there, i guess i just wanted to stay and chill with Karalee after closing.. Well durning closing and stuff i just did stuff in the dinin room... and sat around. During closing, i heard Karalee swear a couple of times, then a couple of times more... i dont think she really noticed or cared... thats when i just kept thinkin and junk..... I rely on one's word, if someone says that he'll do something, i trust that he'll do it, or try hard to do as close as possible to it.... and i try to do the same, if i say i'll do something, i either do it or get as close to doing it. Eh... Karalee i guess has a problem with cussing and junk, and she's told me multiple times that its good that i hang out with her (so she can stop) and she herself said that she'd try to stop cussing.. Well with that and the cussing i heard that night, i believe that she isn't really trying to stop...I was kinda like, my efforts are kinda worthless as seen by me before... (i stopped tryin with Ashley (when i was around)...i mean... why do i really want to help her if she doesn't want to help herself ...) and it pissed me off... i really thought that she was better than that, as to stand by her word per say. Heh, well 2 days before, i wrote karalee some stuff from the heart and what not... and i didnt get to give it to her... Well i guess it wasn't the best time in the world to give it to her, but when she dropped me off, i gave it to her, said watch her swearin and went inside... this just started a big thinking train.... and it just bothered me..... Today i didn't do jack crap, i woke up at 3:48 and didn't do anything, felt kinda bad that i didn't go to church...... i sat around watching tv and sleepin and wakin up watchin tv and sleepin... only got 2 phone calls today... kinda fun eh? still didn't do too much.. o well dont know what to do, and there ain't much to do right now, just typin away and typin down 1/18 of what flows through my head... well i guess thats it for right now, i'll catch it later Quote of the day- Loneliness can injure anyone Thought- My butt hurts

Well its been awhile since i've been here and talking, i have nothing else better to do.. its freakin january the third and i think i'll be gettin myself back into this deal... This and my friends keep me sane i believe... well not much to really talk about right now, i dont feel like typing a 50million thingys.. so i'll just say.. hey my car broke down again and life is good... what more is there to say.... ::Quote of the day- When something goes wrong.... remember, it could always be worse =P Thought of the day- Putting peanutbutter on your hands doesn't help you catch a football...

Nothin new here, life sucks again.....